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Sunday, May 20, 2012

prinsip manusia yang tak berDUNIA : asal aku bahagia...!

salam sejahtera
peace upon you

after such a long time!
alhamdulillah..finally i got time to update blog buruk nih

siapa manusia yang tak berdunia?
it's me
and perhaps one of them is you


berDUNIA
i once had a friend
he always said that to me 
"kau ni tak berdunia..buka sikit minda tu"
-dalam nada bergurau ye-
when i look back, reminiscing the past
yes, i'm not berdunia enough
especially to people like him
plus that im not that open-minded like him
and those that hold to the principle that
   asal aku bahagia, peduli apa orang kata   
until today, even after we broke the relation that we once had
i cant apply that in my life
and im thankful for that
alhamdulillah :)

dunia - dunya in arabic
 means the temporal world—and its earthly concerns and possessions—as opposed to the eternal spiritual realm, or the hereafter 
got it?
i never mean to say that im a manusia yang berakhirat
(kalau ya, alhamdulillah)
but berdunia semata-mata sahaja silap
this world is just a temporary place

And this worldly life is not but diversion and amusement. And indeed, the home of the Hereafter - that is the [eternal] life, if only they knew. 
(29:64)

a transit after alam roh and alam rahim
on our way to barzakh
done bab berdunia

   asal aku bahagia...!   
i despise those who said that
sometimes i feel like
"waaahh..hebat orang ni!"
of course la,
they dare to live without considering what others are thinking about them
kan?
point of view is subjective
if i say it is wrong
you might look at it right
my POV, it's wrong..but not totally wrong

analogi simple :
a man going out wearing a bra, or acting like superman
wearing his briefs outside his pants
then he said,
"suka hati aku la...asal aku bahagia"
hahaha and more hahaha

whether he realise it or not, he's giving dosa to those who will insult him
the most important thing,
   dignity - maruah   
others will look down at him
berani dalam perkara yang salah
bahagia dalam cemuhan
one thing to share
most people that keep holding to this principle are those who hardly can accept any advice or critics
agree?

kehidupan tidak mungkin akan dilayari secara berseorangan
every thing dependent of other things
human need oxygen from plants
human need sunshine
human need animal
human need soil
human need water
human need other human to communicate
men need women to breed
(untuk tumbuhan dan haiwan..list la sendiri..tak larat nak taep~)
but they are people who dare to live only with his/her expectation
without considering how others look at them
(i might be mocked after this entry..huhu)

so, human..how can you say
"asal aku bahagia..peduli apa orang kata?"
this earth is too small for us to run from each other
hidup is too short for us to kumpul pahala and cover semua dosa yang kita buat
(maaf kerojakan bahasa saya di situ)

O mankind, indeed We have created you from male and female and made you peoples and tribes that you may know one another. Indeed, the most noble of you in the sight of Allah is the most righteous of you. Indeed, Allah is Knowing and Acquainted. 
(49:13)

and yet we try to oppose His words
being ignorant people towards others
...you may know one another 

don't ignore the fact that people always grow according to norm
either norm made by the society or by the religions 
we always have expectation to be reached
yang baik atau buruk
wallahualam...niat itu hanya diri sendiri yang tahu

:: reminder ::
bukan kita sahaja yang punya hati untuk dijaga
bukan kita sahaja yang ada buah fikiran untuk diluah
bukan kita sahaja yang ada pendirian untuk dipegang
bukan kita sahaja yang ada kehidupan untuk dilayari
bukan kita sahaja yang mahukan kebahagiaan
bukan kita sahaja yang mahu mengelak kedukaan

wallahualam


p/s : nak hidup seorang boleh la pegang prinsip tu. 
saya taknak, awak nak? :P



Sunday, January 29, 2012

an ANGRY entry for january

salam sejahtera
peace upon you

an angry entry for january
waaa..rhythmic, isn’t it?
sory for my late wish

   gong xi fat cai    
J

angry? yes, absolutely angry!
i am angry with a very good reason
i realised how corrupted my environment is when i was home for the CNY holiday
i made a decision to stay with my grandparents, not my parents
what i can say?
far from typical, but broken family institution
not mine, but the social environment
sorry to say but the truth is always a pain in the ass

they always lepaking in the evening, near dusk
babbling about their neighbours
gossiping about the new car that one of the neighbour that live a kilometre from them had just bought
making and creating news that totally irrational and hard to digest
seldom, when they got nothing to talk, they critic the government
first day, i was cool
for me, dengar aje lah…tak luak pun
second day, i started to feel annoyed
they wasting their precious old time just like that you know!
bukan nak beribadah minta ampun dari tuhan
=.=”
and those activities didn’t stop there
so annoying

sometimes someone will come at night
around after maghrib, seldom after isya’
they will continue their hot stories from the evening till late at night
kadang-kadang selit juga dengan cerita ustaz itu ustazah ini
but that only sometimes and not a-good-to-hear stories
i hate it when i was been forced to listen to all those b***shit!
i feel like i wanna yell, scold each one of them
kuman di seberang laut nampak jelas nyata, bnagkai gajah depan mata?
buat-buat invisible
typical malayan families in malaysia

saya bukan nak memburukkan but as i said before
truth is always a pain in the ass


when i reflect back to myself
i have no difference from them
maybe there are differences, but not much
saya tahu
fitnah itu lebih buruk dari membunuh
pandai kritik orang, hakikatnya
itulah halwa telinga kita semua
what we are waiting for are stories about others
add here and there, modify those stories a bit then pass it to others
tiny little things become stories of the year

     we need to make a difference     

tak boleh banyak sikit pun jadi
i don’t want my next generation become corrupted
my sons my daughters my great-great-great grandkids
and yours too




p/s : boleh migraine hari-hari dok dengar cerita tentang harta orang





Tuesday, November 29, 2011

tribute to my friends . bila dah bosan gak...

salam sejahtera
peace upon you

seriously
truly
madly
deeply
in trouble
=.=”

i wish i didn’t do what i had done to you
aiyoo..sorry!
we are friends
   FRIENDSHIP never sink   
we just need to distance ourselves
i think so…
stop bothering me with your sweet words, i won’t accept them

my close friends start suggesting weird things to me
choose this, do that, learn how to get this, that is the one
tall, cute, handsome bla bla bla
actually, im not interested in such things..yet
however!
because of my self-concious hormone higher than anybody else
i afraid that i have to admit
 im a very sensitive person
quite good at misinterpreting things
don’t try to tease me
the one that may regret later might be someone that is absolutely not me
  so i hope, we just follow the flow
if i wish to stop so that’s it

i hardly believe in people
though im a honest person ~ i keep things by myself
if im telling you something about myself
i think you are worth to be a close friend of mine
don’t cross the border too much k…

i am a lucky person
i got many friends
i got many counsellors and psychiatrists to consult
 thank you
but
sorry if your advice are not considered
i guess i just realise one or two things for now
i knew what i should do
wish me luck babes!

we always got excited over unnecessary things 
thanx for brighten my life make it wonderful and colorful

its true
we should choose people to befriend carefully
because  they will affect you or vice versa
but
   never ignore your friends   
kalau dah tahu dorang tu senget
help them
siratul mustaqim bukan hanya untuk anda
orang yang perasan dirinya berada di landasan yang betul
takkan tinggal kawan
    nak jadi baik tak boleh sorang-sorang

i miss my campus!!!
wuuwuuu..i miss doing my assignments
chitchatting whole time with them
instead of cooking, washing dishes, sewing
berebut remote control tv, bolster
nak mandi hujan da tak hujan =.=”


as for you
my best friend…for now
and forever, i hope
meh la derak umoh ak lagi deh J
don’t forget
eat less, exercise more
stop kembangkan diri anda neh
next time we will go to munduk ye, shopping together-gether
eeeuuuww!
nice to know you and of course your mom too
kena ayat mak, baru dapat lesen dok?
haha




p/s : i guess people never feel satisfied.
when im in maktab i miss home
when im home i miss maktab =.=”




Friday, November 4, 2011

identity crisis . my common prob during EXAM

salam sejahtera
peace upon you

first of all
  GOOD LUCK TO ALL IPG'S STUDENT FOR YOUR FINAL EXAM  
our struggle begins next week

when exam comes nearer
 i'll become crazier than usual
pity my friends
sorry to say but my hormones are not in the right fraction
totally ill-distributed and imbalanced
i got sick easily - especially in this kind of weather
almost all the time, i'm not in the mood
this week, is a very tense week for me


i'm not a study type person
i didn't sleep with my books
i never open all the stupid books more than an hour
i can't stay static when i'm studying
10 mins holding the book
15 mins needed to refresh my mind back!
that's why i always go to the library
even though there's nobody to accompany me
pushing myself very hard to wake up early
get ready to meet the lecturers
if i keep staying in my room
i'll get nothing
cause
i'll do nothing except than reading manga online
reading and laughing alone with those stupid novels and comics
blog-walking here and there 
facebooking, stalking people
haish!


is it only me or you too did encounter these temptations???


susah nak fokus kan?

actually
this crisis began when i saw my friends study and study and STUDY
and i myself are not ready yet!
i will try to keep myself alone
going here and there
trying to find a right place and time for me to do revision
alone
i'm not stingy, i can share what i know
if people approach me and ask me
i still can treat them well
it's just to soothe my heart anyway

sorry to all my classmates
sorry to all my friends
during this period
i don't keep my phone with me all the time
i just reply what i think i should
this exam include
syllabi for three sems kot!

after all this silly things with examination finish
i'll back to normal
dulu in matriculation pun macam ni jugak
=.="



p/s : tak boleh manjakan diri sangat!
sekarang pun bukan nak buka buku..heh




Thursday, October 6, 2011

flashbacks : TELENOVELA hidup

salam sejahtera
peace upon you

last saturday
i went to KLCC and met my best friend there
shazni marzuki
you are just too wonderful to be described
wonderFRIEND
we shared everything that we could think at that time
ahh..betapa dah berubahnya hidup kami
i miss my old friends
real bad!

today i met my ex-lecturer from KMPP
she's a very significant character in my life
the one and only
miss wahidah abd majid

she said
im different and she did mentioned that
"dulu dia selekeh je"
in front of two of my present classmates =.="
actually i was proud when she said that
she saw something different in me from before
im changing..of course to the better
from selekeh..mungkin kepada lebih kemas..kot!

everything that i had faced, my experiences, bittersweet moments 
was flashed during that short time with her
there are memories that was hard to forget
and experiences that was hard to get!


i kept all the memories that we'd shared together in my mind closely
it's even hard to write even an ounce of them
it's too fantastic to be written with words! 



p/s : im looking forward for a reunion bebeh!


Monday, September 26, 2011

sometimes, something cannot be shown too much

salam sejahtera
peace upon you

betul kan?
sometimes, something cannot be shown too much
like us, WOMAN
dont have to show what we have too much
enough with our face and palm

same thing goes for other situations

if you hate something or someone
dont show it too much
it may turn out differently
you might fall in love with it

if you love something or someone
dont show it too much
it may turn out differently
you might hate it later
*nampak sangat malas nak buat ayat

actually, it will never hurt if we try to control ourselves
we call that mujahadah nafsu
bersederhana lah


oh, this is not applied to all situations ya!
for things that absolutely bad and endanger
of course you need to hate it
adultery, gambling...for example

i used to love something
but then i realised that its no good
i used to hate something
until i realised that it has give me countless of benefits 

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu sedangkan ia baik untukmu dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu sedangkan ia buruk untukmu. Allah mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak tahu."
Surah. Al Baqarah:216.



p/s : put a smile on your face, even to someone you hate. show some love.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

why i love my LAPPY

salam sejahtera
peace upon you

why i love my lappy?


nonsense but it's true

that's why i love my lappy
haha



p/s : ini hanya berlaku pada masa tertentu ketika lappy saya meroyan.
pada hari normal, dia menjadi normal balik. 

Thursday, August 18, 2011

how IGNORANT they are. Oh, not only them..but also YOU and ME


salam sejahtera
peace upon you

i have problems!
only now i realised that 
i am 
actually, totally don't know how to arrange my priorities!
*sigh

then how?
of course i cant blame others if our priority is not the same
in other words
i want to do something that they don't want
maybe i think it is important
for them, it's might not as important as it is for me
sometimes this kind of thing just....annoying!

i felt that they are ignorant
they don't even want to put their shoes in my place
it's not like i just simply made my decision without thinking about them..
or it might be about you



i do think hard you know!

so...from today
i will arrange my priorities according to everybody's mindset
what i mean is
not only what is important to me but also to others comes first
i don't want to be ignorant like what others did to me
if it can annoy me
of course others will feel the same too
right?


p/s : i really not in the mood : SS presentation is going on while i'm typing this entry =.="
bbbooooooooooooosssaaann~

Sunday, August 14, 2011

between the one WE LOVE and the one that LOVES US


salam sejahtera
peace upon you

have you ever met this kind of problem?
struggling in choosing something or someone that both are important?
the difference
that one is someone / something that we love the other one is someone / something that loves us
*this is not spot the difference quiz ya!*

ini sama sekali bukan cinta tiga segi ye
analogi simple :

si A falling in love with si B yang tak suka kan diapada masa yang sama si C suka kan si A si A berkawan rapat dengan kedua-dua orang ni

tanpa kita sedar kita menjaga hati salah seorang 
dan 
pada masa yang sama melukakan hati seseorang yang lain


terus berada dalam kekeliruan
or 
menunggu sampai ending nya jadi camni?


menunggu sampai yang tak suka jadi suka?

tapi mak nora elena ada cakap
"kahwinlah dengan orang yang sayang kita, bukan yang kita sayang lebih-lebih"

so?
tepuk dada tanya diri sendiri

kesimpulan atas dasar kesedaran saya,
jangan fikir bab-bab cinta, hati dan perasaan nih
headache je
sampai jodoh kahwin juga :)


p/s : keputusan idea untuk meng-update =.="

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