is it small little things?

salam

alhamdulillah...

at last, i got some time to update my blog

Macbeth dramatization, exhibition, competition  onwards

plus..i was in AKAL 

( Akademi Profesionalisme dan Kepimpinan Al-Ghazali )

since 29th until yesterday

in Ma'ahad Tahfiz Al-Fityan, Yan, Kedah

it was widely open before but i got it stitched

so it can filter what should go in and out

my heart was sorely confused and perplexed right now

after being there and 

at first, wanted a nice slow talk as 'usual'

"people always be like that"

___ said

"ni mesti sebab kem, jadi lain"

___ again

"perlukah berubah? sekarang tak baik?"

and i was so down

please understand that,

you are important

you have a big influence in my life

if not, i dont have to ask

and

most important

i didnt ask for PERMISSION

i asked because i want to know your reaction

i didnt say yet what i want to change

i just said i 'think' that i need some changes

but the feedback was already that NEGATIVE

...cries...

mind and heart

soul and body

aching right now

i really into the thought that i got when i was in AKAL

but my heart still have that feeling

berat! sangat! susah! kata orang!

padahal

none matters

what matter most

is me myself

please, do help me

usrati

friends

akhowat

i really need help from you

komitmen itu tarbiyah

im proud, i was there

even though there's so many things need to be done

i got stressed over going or not

after all

its done, finish

and im glad, grateful to all

ALHAMDULILLAH