Monday, October 31, 2011

empty thought : a need to brainwash yourselves

salam sejahtera
peace upon you

i really hate it when i have nothing in mind 
when people asked me something which you too will feel like a s**t
questions like,

sebenarnya, apa tujuan awak berada di maktab ni?
apa tujuan awak wujud di dunia ni?
semua manusia ada tujuan untuk hidup, so, what's yours?

to those that already have life plan 
which are not disturbed by any distraction
no obstacle at all
even you have, you still can overcome it
you are not included in this heart-broken session with me
nak jadi anak solehah
nak jadi cikgu cemerlang
nak jadi isteri dan ibu mithali
nak jadi sehebat Siti Fatimah r.a

if that is your answer
if no effort are taken to make it a reality
 to most people, it's just a promise uttered by your mouths 
not by your heart, not by you yourselves
your answer just to comfort yourselves
just to show that at least you have something you want to achieve
in fact, you never give it really serious thought!

untuk saya
yang life plan yang dulunya dirancang dengan teliti sudah hancur musnah
cebisan-cebisan memori lama masih berguna untuk dicantum kembali
i'm trying hard to paste them on a piece of empty thought
so that when people ask me this question again
i will have a solid answer and i can tell them with proud
apa tujuan saya berada di sini
berdiri megah di muka bumi milik Tuhan

you too
i knew,
when people asked you that kind of questions
first, you have nothing in mind
if you do have something
you cant tell them with confident
because yourselves dont have confident!
whether you can do it or not
dont ask me how i knew, cause i just know
even you yourselves dont trust 'you' to make it true

 it is hard to accept but remember, reality's hurt 
the only solution,
think, with healthy mind,
what is the reason behind your existence
cukupkah sekadar hidup bahagia, senangkan hidup ibu bapa?
cukupkah sekadar mencapai cita-cita yang selama ini diimpikan?
mana khidmat anda kepada masyarakat?
mana jasa anda pada agama?
mana bakti anda pada negara?
do i need to consider all that nonsense???
yes, you do!

if years before,
when my teacher asked me,
what is your ambition,
I would copy the answer from my friend 
which i think she's/he's the most brilliant person in the class
funny right?

i need to think and revise back my whole years
born on this Earth

p/s : study week during raining season = studo~

Tuesday, October 11, 2011


salam sejahtera 
peace upon you 

i once heard an ulama from Indo
Sheikh Rohimuddin an-Nawawi al-Bentani
"saya berasa stress, lantas saya bermuahasabah...mencari di mana saya tidak redha"

i felt a static flowed in my body
oh, stress means i don't feel pleased with what God had gave me
get it?
try to think
your teachers / lecturers gave you abundant of assignments to do
the due date?
what you can do?
yes you will try to finish it
at the same time, you keep babbling, blaming the teachers
that's why you become stress
you think too much but you do less

after this try to handle you stress
put your best efforts in everything
the satisfaction sure will come 
and you will your keep smiling face all the way round afterwards

Sheikh also said that :

kalau anda sangat mudah berasa marah, sedih, gembira bermakna dunia ini sangat memberi kesan pada anda
jangan lupa
destinasi kita adalah AKHIRAT sana :)

p/s : i need to seek for help in managing my stress =.="

Thursday, October 6, 2011

flashbacks : TELENOVELA hidup

salam sejahtera
peace upon you

last saturday
i went to KLCC and met my best friend there
shazni marzuki
you are just too wonderful to be described
we shared everything that we could think at that time
ahh..betapa dah berubahnya hidup kami
i miss my old friends
real bad!

today i met my ex-lecturer from KMPP
she's a very significant character in my life
the one and only
miss wahidah abd majid

she said
im different and she did mentioned that
"dulu dia selekeh je"
in front of two of my present classmates =.="
actually i was proud when she said that
she saw something different in me from before
im changing..of course to the better
from selekeh..mungkin kepada lebih kemas..kot!

everything that i had faced, my experiences, bittersweet moments 
was flashed during that short time with her
there are memories that was hard to forget
and experiences that was hard to get!

i kept all the memories that we'd shared together in my mind closely
it's even hard to write even an ounce of them
it's too fantastic to be written with words! 

p/s : im looking forward for a reunion bebeh!

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