Tuesday, June 28, 2011

i HAVE a dream...


salam
peace upon you

finish with all b.s things with emotion
tutup buku lama, buka baru and start to write a new chapter

first thing first to begin a new life
tukar impian or cita-cita or mimpi SEDIKIT
yang mungkin akan kesampaian tapi cara dan orang yang berlainan
( okeh, saya pun tak paham! )

contoh nye lah

si **** berhajat nak jadi doktor
tapi SPM cukup-cukup makan
dia nak masuk U konon nak buat asasi sains lah
ada lah jugak chance nak jadi doktor
but in the end,
dia masuk matrix dan ambil sains fizik
get it? get it?
tapi si **** takde la nak give up lagi 
sebab lecturers dia cakap,
"budak sains fizik tak semestinya tak boleh jadi doktor"
check punya check
betul, ade je Uni yang ambil students fizik jadi doktor
dia pun teruskan lah azam dia tu nak jadi doktor
tapi!
lepas exam si **** ni rasa makin cinta kat fizik
hari demi hari 
malam demi malam yang tak pernah diisi dengan tidur yang nyenyak
kuiz demi kuiz yang tak pernah senang dijawab
dia buat keputusan nak jadi engineer pulak dah

disebabkan halangan itu, iaitu
jatuh cintanya dia pada satu bidang indah bernama fizik
dia pun pulun punya pulun sampai sakit-sakit
tak sihat badan
insomnia bagai
semata-mata nak capai cita-cita jadi engineer

saat yang dinanti-nanti
sampai lah sekeping surat ke rumah bertulis
USM, kampus kejuruteraan
dengan penuh semangat dan hati-hati
waaaaa!
bachelor of engineering hons. electronics engineering

semangat nih
contact kawan-kawan kut-kut ada yang dapat sekali
beli barang, pack barang

tapi at the end dia terpaksa ubah cita-cita
kenapa????
sebab dia tak pergi ke USM
dia ke tempat lain yang lebih terjamin 
untuk keluarga tersayang dan diri sendiri
si **** tak kecewa ( walaupun kecewa pada mulanya )
tukar je cita-cita jadi *******

moralnya kat sini
we can't achieve everything that we want
( nak-nak lagi kalau tak usaha dan tawakkal )
mungkin dalam pertengahan jalan akan ada satu halangan
tak kira lah
besar ke kecil ke
yang paling penting,
jangan putus asa 
sebab ALLAH dah tentukan yang terbaik untuk kita

so, beeskuwt...move on with your life
usah dikenang benda lepas
teruskan hidup dengan ceritera baru
azam baru
matlamat baru
setiap sesuatu itu ada hikmah nya
betul kan?

tak ada makna nya
kalau korang berhajat nak commit suicide terjun KB Mall
telan ubat telan dadah
kerat urat kat tangan tuh
sebab kucing korang mati
result exams tak segempak yang diharap
nak kahwin dengan anak raja tapi tak dapat
ditinggal kekasih yang bercinta baru seminggu
kawan-kawan korang panggil korang macam-macam nama indah
jiran sebelah rumah beli kereta baru
classmates korang dapat lelaki/perempuan pujaan korang
tak ada makna nya

i have a dream...to be what i suppose to be
*jeng-jeng-jeng*


DREAM HIGH
eh, tak berkait pulak ye! huhu



p/s : pasni dengar lagu i have a dream banyak-banyak kali, nak generate mimpi baru :)

Sunday, June 26, 2011

we ( WOMEN ) tend to fall easier than MAN?


salam sejahtera
peace upon you

is it true?
women tend to fall for somebody easier than man??
entah!
based on my experience
( haha, macam pernah terkena je kan ^^" )
saya cepat terasa laen to the people that contacted me the most
means,
( "laen" not necessarily falling in love k! )
i got a feeling kinda uneasy feeling when that particular person didn't contact me
my friend said
it's common because
women tend to fall with somebody that contact them the most
lebih-lebih lagi yang sebelum ni tak pernah contact in the means of friends 
alah...
macam orang yang berkenalan kat FB tuh

first : ask for phone number
second : SMS
third : MMS
fourth : calling-calling
fifth : kapel!


senang la tuh kan?

i think la, i belongs to that group
the first man that got that feeling
used that kind of methods
except..MMSing because we met everyday
huh!
( bila ingat balik buatsakit hati je ) 

i think i should change
don't fall for sweet talkers
yang SMS ayat-ayat yang bukan main boleh buat hati kembang sebesar tempayang
fikiran melayang sampai ke Mars

hah...one more important thing!

when a man telling you that you are CUTE or COMEL
they are looking at your face
when a man telling that you are HOT or SEXY
they are looking at your body
when a man telling that you are BEAUTIFUL
they do consider your attitude and characters too 

the best way
choose somebody that treat you well
advise you when you are wrong
care for you when you are sick 
even before you are officially declared to be together
mad at you when you do something really bad
( jangan lah sampai memalukan anda pula cara dia marah tuh )
most important
mampu buat anda berubah kepada yang lebih BAIK!



zed zaidi and his wife berkenalan di FB apa





p/s : will i fall for someone again? hahaha..mungkin.

Friday, June 24, 2011

HIDUP ini bukan sekadar AKU dan KAU!


salam sejahtera
peace upon you

apa jadi bila


it's hard to handle right?
even i'm still trying to handle this kind of things
whatever it was, 
between 
you and him
you and her
you and them
remember
hidup ni bukan sekadar aku dan kau
ada banyak lagi perkara yang boleh difikirkan

find other things to distract you from that thing
broken heart sure give you a lot of pain
a HELL lot of pain

i wish you all the best
but do remember


DON'T EVER LOOK BACK FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE



p/s : awak takkan jumpe lgi orang macam saya dan saya harap saya takkan jumpe lagi orang macam awak.
buang masa je fikir benda-benda macam ni, belajar lagi bagus! :) 

Thursday, June 16, 2011

misery


salam sejahtera
peace upon you
maaf
kerana ketiadaan entry baru dalam masa yang lama

I think I was out of reason to procrastinate
in doing something like assignments
helping my mom or dad
or sisters or brothers
sebab tu saya ada masa nak meng-update
sometimes it was such a misery, when I got nothing to do

a state or feeling of great physical or mental distress or discomfort

why is it misery now?
no answer
mungkin saja-saja nak bercerita
tiba-tiba terasa nak berkongsi satu kisah
memori lama seseorang

at that time, I was in standard 6
I got a classmate named ********
this friend actually wasn’t such a likeable girl
back then, she always appeared alone
and sometimes people seemed disgusted with her appearances
dirty clothes
old school bags
she was like an abandoned child to me
I wondered why she was like that
she didn’t come from a hard family though
Oh, she’s living with her grandparents
so?
as far as I knew, her grandma really didn’t like her
she always came to me crying
telling me how her grandma asked her money for the food she ate
babbling about the money she wasted on her
on electricity bills, water bills
how lazy she was
I felt it was very unfair to her
she was just a kid, a little girl
her aunt also lived in that house but she done nothing
she was some sort of princess of the castle
if something happened, the house was not tidy enough
she got the blame
she washed all her clothes by hands
she couldn’t use the washing machine
or else she will get tones of lectures and babbles
as the one who bought that thing was her aunt

I remembered once
when her younger brother came there
he got some injuries
( I couldn’t remember how he injured himself )
she wanted to call her dad, telling that her brother got injured
and she wanted him to come early to take her brother
the moment she lifted the telephone, started to press the numbers
her aunt started her babbling
her grandma got mad
and kept talking about how she had wasted her money since she lived there
there was nobody who could stand and defend them
she put the phone back
she rode her bicycle with her brother crying at the back
they went to the nearest public phone but it was broken
she went to other public phone that was quite far from the village
but, it was also broken

she couldn’t hold all the sadness and miseries that she had bear all this while
she held the tears that was dwelling in her eyes
she sent her brother back to her grandma’s house
then rode her bicycle without any directions for hours
it started to rain and the sky getting darker and darker

for that night, she did not go home
she went to her friend’s house and slept there
she told her friend’s mom that she couldn’t go home because it was raining
yes, it was
it was raining cats and dogs in herself
she got too many things to hold in her small little heart and mind

on our last day in primary school
she received so many awards
she also got the first place from all standard 6 students
 ( yes, she was a smart and hardworking girl )
Because she did not have many friends
she wasted her time on reading books and doing practices

but it was a pity
when everybody was with their families
took pictures together
got hugs and back rubs from their parents
nobody was there to share her happiness
she sat at a hidden corner crying alone after the ceremony finished
no mom or dad
her grandma and aunt?
hahaha

now?
I don’t know
I guess her life got better as she had live with her parents
her own family

come, together with me
we pray for her
for a better life

also for others that think money and materials are everything
don’t ever lose your humanity
thus bring miseries to others


P/S : misery no more~
bila saya teringat kisah lama ni, saya rasa saya mampu hadapi segala tekanan yang ada
andai dia yang ketika hanya berusia 12 tahun dapat atasi tekanan sebegitu, apatah lagi saya

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