i HAVE a dream...

salam

peace upon you

finish with all b.s things with emotion

tutup buku lama, buka baru and start to write a new chapter

first thing first to begin a new life

tukar impian or cita-cita or mimpi SEDIKIT

yang mungkin akan kesampaian tapi cara dan orang yang berlainan

( okeh, saya pun tak paham! )

contoh nye lah

si **** berhajat nak jadi doktor

tapi SPM cukup-cukup makan

dia nak masuk U konon nak buat asasi sains lah

ada lah jugak chance nak jadi doktor

but in the end,

dia masuk matrix dan ambil sains fizik

get it? get it?

tapi si **** takde la nak give up lagi 

sebab lecturers dia cakap,

"budak sains fizik tak semestinya tak boleh jadi doktor"

check punya check

betul, ade je Uni yang ambil students fizik jadi doktor

dia pun teruskan lah azam dia tu nak jadi doktor

tapi!

lepas exam si **** ni rasa makin cinta kat fizik

hari demi hari 

malam demi malam yang tak pernah diisi dengan tidur yang nyenyak

kuiz demi kuiz yang tak pernah senang dijawab

dia buat keputusan nak jadi engineer pulak dah

disebabkan halangan itu, iaitu

jatuh cintanya dia pada satu bidang indah bernama fizik

dia pun pulun punya pulun sampai sakit-sakit

tak sihat badan

insomnia bagai

semata-mata nak capai cita-cita jadi engineer

saat yang dinanti-nanti

sampai lah sekeping surat ke rumah bertulis

USM, kampus kejuruteraan

dengan penuh semangat dan hati-hati

waaaaa!

bachelor of engineering hons. electronics engineering

semangat nih

contact kawan-kawan kut-kut ada yang dapat sekali

beli barang, pack barang

tapi at the end dia terpaksa ubah cita-cita

kenapa????

sebab dia tak pergi ke USM

dia ke tempat lain yang lebih terjamin 
untuk keluarga tersayang dan diri sendiri

si **** tak kecewa ( walaupun kecewa pada mulanya )

tukar je cita-cita jadi *******

moralnya kat sini

we can't achieve everything that we want

( nak-nak lagi kalau tak usaha dan tawakkal )

mungkin dalam pertengahan jalan akan ada satu halangan

tak kira lah

besar ke kecil ke

yang paling penting,

jangan putus asa 

sebab ALLAH dah tentukan yang terbaik untuk kita

so, beeskuwt...move on with your life

usah dikenang benda lepas

teruskan hidup dengan ceritera baru

azam baru

matlamat baru

setiap sesuatu itu ada hikmah nya

betul kan?

tak ada makna nya

kalau korang berhajat nak commit suicide terjun KB Mall

telan ubat telan dadah

kerat urat kat tangan tuh

sebab kucing korang mati

result exams tak segempak yang diharap

nak kahwin dengan anak raja tapi tak dapat

ditinggal kekasih yang bercinta baru seminggu

kawan-kawan korang panggil korang macam-macam nama indah

jiran sebelah rumah beli kereta baru

classmates korang dapat lelaki/perempuan pujaan korang

tak ada makna nya

i have a dream...to be what i suppose to be

*jeng-jeng-jeng*

DREAM HIGH

eh, tak berkait pulak ye! huhu

p/s : pasni dengar lagu i have a dream banyak-banyak kali, nak generate mimpi baru :)

we ( WOMEN ) tend to fall easier than MAN?

salam sejahtera

peace upon you

is it true?

women tend to fall for somebody easier than man??

entah!

based on my experience

( haha, macam pernah terkena je kan ^^" )

saya cepat terasa laen to the people that contacted me the most

means,

( "laen" not necessarily falling in love k! )

i got a feeling kinda uneasy feeling when that particular person didn't contact me

my friend said

it's common because

women tend to fall with somebody that contact them the most

lebih-lebih lagi yang sebelum ni tak pernah contact in the means of friends 

alah...

macam orang yang berkenalan kat FB tuh

first : ask for phone number

second : SMS

third : MMS

fourth : calling-calling

fifth : kapel!

senang la tuh kan?

i think la, i belongs to that group

the first man that got that feeling

used that kind of methods

except..MMSing because we met everyday

huh!

( bila ingat balik buatsakit hati je ) 

i think i should change

don't fall for sweet talkers

yang SMS ayat-ayat yang bukan main boleh buat hati kembang sebesar tempayang

fikiran melayang sampai ke Mars

hah...one more important thing!

when a man telling you that you are CUTE or COMEL

they are looking at your face

when a man telling that you are HOT or SEXY

they are looking at your body

when a man telling that you are BEAUTIFUL

they do consider your attitude and characters too 

the best way

choose somebody that treat you well

advise you when you are wrong

care for you when you are sick 

even before you are officially declared to be together

mad at you when you do something really bad

( jangan lah sampai memalukan anda pula cara dia marah tuh )

most important

mampu buat anda berubah kepada yang lebih BAIK!

zed zaidi and his wife berkenalan di FB apa

p/s : will i fall for someone again? hahaha..mungkin.

HIDUP ini bukan sekadar AKU dan KAU!

salam sejahtera

peace upon you

apa jadi bila

it's hard to handle right?

even i'm still trying to handle this kind of things

whatever it was, 

between 

you and him

you and her

you and them

remember

hidup ni bukan sekadar aku dan kau

ada banyak lagi perkara yang boleh difikirkan

find other things to distract you from that thing

broken heart sure give you a lot of pain

a HELL lot of pain

i wish you all the best

but do remember

DON'T EVER LOOK BACK FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE

p/s : awak takkan jumpe lgi orang macam saya dan saya harap saya takkan jumpe lagi orang macam awak.

buang masa je fikir benda-benda macam ni, belajar lagi bagus! :) 

misery

salam sejahtera

peace upon you

maaf

kerana ketiadaan entry baru dalam masa yang lama

I think I was out of reason to procrastinate

in doing something like assignments

helping my mom or dad

or sisters or brothers

sebab tu saya ada masa nak meng-update

sometimes it was such a misery, when I got nothing to do

misery according to http://oxforddictionaries.com/definition/misery

a state or feeling of great physical or mental distress or discomfort

why is it misery now?

no answer

mungkin saja-saja nak bercerita

tiba-tiba terasa nak berkongsi satu kisah

memori lama seseorang

at that time, I was in standard 6

I got a classmate named ********

this friend actually wasn’t such a likeable girl

back then, she always appeared alone

and sometimes people seemed disgusted with her appearances

dirty clothes

old school bags

she was like an abandoned child to me

I wondered why she was like that

she didn’t come from a hard family though

Oh, she’s living with her grandparents

so?

as far as I knew, her grandma really didn’t like her

she always came to me crying

telling me how her grandma asked her money for the food she ate

babbling about the money she wasted on her

on electricity bills, water bills

how lazy she was

I felt it was very unfair to her

she was just a kid, a little girl

her aunt also lived in that house but she done nothing

she was some sort of princess of the castle

if something happened, the house was not tidy enough

she got the blame

she washed all her clothes by hands

she couldn’t use the washing machine

or else she will get tones of lectures and babbles

as the one who bought that thing was her aunt

I remembered once

when her younger brother came there

he got some injuries

( I couldn’t remember how he injured himself )

she wanted to call her dad, telling that her brother got injured

and she wanted him to come early to take her brother

the moment she lifted the telephone, started to press the numbers

her aunt started her babbling

her grandma got mad

and kept talking about how she had wasted her money since she lived there

there was nobody who could stand and defend them

she put the phone back

she rode her bicycle with her brother crying at the back

they went to the nearest public phone but it was broken

she went to other public phone that was quite far from the village

but, it was also broken

she couldn’t hold all the sadness and miseries that she had bear all this while

she held the tears that was dwelling in her eyes

she sent her brother back to her grandma’s house

then rode her bicycle without any directions for hours

it started to rain and the sky getting darker and darker

for that night, she did not go home

she went to her friend’s house and slept there

she told her friend’s mom that she couldn’t go home because it was raining

yes, it was

it was raining cats and dogs in herself

she got too many things to hold in her small little heart and mind

on our last day in primary school

she received so many awards

she also got the first place from all standard 6 students

 ( yes, she was a smart and hardworking girl )

Because she did not have many friends

she wasted her time on reading books and doing practices

but it was a pity

when everybody was with their families

took pictures together

got hugs and back rubs from their parents

nobody was there to share her happiness

she sat at a hidden corner crying alone after the ceremony finished

no mom or dad

her grandma and aunt?

hahaha

now?

I don’t know

I guess her life got better as she had live with her parents

her own family

come, together with me

we pray for her

for a better life

also for others that think money and materials are everything

don’t ever lose your humanity

thus bring miseries to others

P/S : misery no more~

bila saya teringat kisah lama ni, saya rasa saya mampu hadapi segala tekanan yang ada

andai dia yang ketika hanya berusia 12 tahun dapat atasi tekanan sebegitu, apatah lagi saya