adakah yang PELIK itu mesti JELIK?

salam sejahtera

peace upon you

once again,

adakah yang jelik itu mesti pelik?

yang biasa-biasa tak mungkin jadi jelik ke?

as an example,
try to interpret this picture from your point of view,

pada saya, at first
pelik
tapi nothing's wrong, amazing ada lah


but when i show this to my grandma or my older relatives
they said,
"entah pape, menyeksa diri"
"JELIK"
"tak patut"
sebab mereka tak tahu cultural value kaum kenyah
mereka tak faham kenapa dan mengapa
cuba kalau mereka faham
it will become a norm to them
takkan ada istilah pelik wal jelik lagi dah


i dont have any intention to raise any sensitive issues here
just an example ok!


another example,
dua orang perempuan keluar malam-malam
around 9-10 pm
pelik kah?


again, perempuan yang sama, waktu yang sama
tambah seorang lelaki
pelik kah?


and once again, still, same women, same time and place
tambah 3 orang lelaki
2 perempuan + 3 lelaki
pelik kah?
and need to mention,
no couple in that group
pelik atau dah masuk jelik?


mungkin sesetengah dari readers entry ni akan kata
"sosial~"
"biasa ar tu,ape kes nak pelik-pelik"
err...tak kata apa-apa ada gak kot
depends on that person mindset


peringatan dari saya,
we cant interpret things from our point of view ONLY
we need to consider many things before we make our own assumption
not only 
dont judge a book by its cover applied here
but also
dont judge people on how they act
kadang-kadang manusia suka sorokkan sifat sebenar dia
based on situations and setting la kan
bila bersama dengan orang ini,
dia jadi begini,
bila bersama dengan orang itu,
dia jadi begitu


conclusion?
you make your own conclusion
your own interpretation




p/s : sabor je la~

BUTA kah?

salam sejahtera 

peace upon you

are they totally blinded by the love or there are some small little holes used to peek?

materials

looks

styles

descent 

RELIGION

you choose.

once people are falling in love,

they may not care anymore about other things

but,

before they are falling,

there are factors contributing to the LOVE

think

are they really love you as you are?

as time passes

it might be

tapi kan,

bila kita tanya diri kita balik,

apa yang saya nampak pada dia?

apa yang ada pada dia?

kenapa?

tiada jawapan

sebenarnya 

kejadian CINTA itu tidak BUTA

ALLAH tak jadikan cinta itu buta

( from my point of view )

kalau cinta itu buta

takkan ada dalil ini,

 "Seorang wanita itu dinikahi kerana empat; kerana harta, kerana keturunannya, kecantikannya dan agamanya. Maka hendaklah diutamakan yang beragama, nescaya kamu berbahagia."

riwayat bukhari dan muslim

cinta itu tidak buta wahai manusia

we may close eyes from looking to his / her appearances

but other things?

perhaps not

think!

falling in love with HIM is the best

we cant see HIM but still

deep in our heart there's love

may HIS love keep showering each one of you

amin

p/s : folders for MQA tak buat lagi =.="

sometimes, being kids are not fun at all...

salam sejahtera

peace upon you?

first,

cross your hands and put both palms on your chest

say : ALHAMDULILLAH, i'm alive today

ada satu berita yang buat saya betul-betul sedih!

which one?

click for full news

at first i read about this from one of the blogs that i followed

but the picture didnt show up 

perhaps because of our 'excellent' wifi service

even reading the news, without the image shown up there

me and my friends almost cry!

“Haziq pintar biarpun baru berusia tiga tahun lima bulan. Dalam keadaan sakit dia masih sempat menasihatkan saya dan isteri supaya jangan menangis kerana dia tidak mahu mati lagi,” katanya.

take note that Haziq is only 3years+5months old!

ya ALLAH, besarnya ujian dia

sakit! andai yang melihat pun rasa sakit apatah lagi dia yang masih kecil

he might have permanent impairment to two of his fingers
he also injured his tummy and his legs 

membuatkan saya teringat pada adik saya

dah tak handsome =.="

( june,2011 )

he fell down

when he was in my supervision when my parents was away

innocent kids : they cry a bit, then they laugh when we play them

ada lagi satu cerita kanak-kanak
yang mungkin buat anda mengubah pandangan anda
yang menjadi kanak-kanak ini seronok sebenarnya!


http://beeskuwtmarie.blogspot.com/2011/02/life-of-lone-ranger.html






p/s : bermurah hatilah. doakan adik Haziq cepat sembuh, cepat sihat! :)

i thought it was a happy ending story, SADly it isn't

salam sejahtera

peace upon you

attention, this is absolutely not a titanic kind of thing

my entry seems cannot run from emotions (negative one of course) thing

haish!

this is a story of my girl friend, ***

she HAS a friend, a not-so-called-friend

this friend, a man, ###, is very kind to her

for me, not only kind, but its TOO kind

sometimes, because of ###'s kindness towards her

i often misunderstood and thought they are having something

he treat her like how a man would treat his girl!

not only me, but many had misunderstood

### and *** has been friend for almost one year and a half now

started from FB to SMSing

*** become fond of ###

furthermore, my friend was having an extreme heartbroken before

right before he came in her life closely

he always there for her

she got comforts

she got pampered by him

suddenly, my friend's told me they got conflict

he was too busy even to reply her sms

and i realised one thing

"OMG, you started to fall for him!"

she knew she not suppose to fall for him

he only treat her as a friend

she knew she would embarrass herself in front of him

but still...it was a feeling that cannot be scrub off just like that

sometimes she encourage herself, telling that he might have the same thing like her

pathetic isn't it?

one night

a very meaningful night for her

she confessed

even she knew he didn't have the same feeling as she had

( it's not like she wanted to tell, but that thing already slipped from her tongue )

the outcome,

she was happy

weird isn't it?

he still treat her like usual

a treat that every single human being can misunderstood

she wanted to get rid of that feeling but ### said wait

he's giving her something that we called

HOPE

*** was very happy!

sangat! 

even i felt weird why she was very happy

its only for a couple of hours she kept smiling to herself

before she suddenly went silent

i knew after that she received such a gruesome truth

about ###

you guess what....even i feel disgusted with this kind of man

he was much more worst than 'him'

i wish *** can get rid of him from her mind right on that moment she knew that

he already got someone :)

nice...

he's giving my friend hope

but then he made her crushed until she couldn't face others

others who thought they 'are in a relationship'

she cried, wailing in the toilet

but because of the feeling she had towards him

she's still happy when he sent her even a sms

and she dont have the courage to tell him that she knew he already got somebody

she's afraid that he might refused to treat her like before

haha...senang-senang nya dia mempermainkan perasaan kawan saya tu

i learnt something today

bila hati dah suka

apa-apa pun manusia jadi tak kisah

walau sakit macam mana pun

p/s : please wish this pathetic friend of mine happiness and she wont meet a CRUEL man like that again.

unexpectedly, its HAPPENING?

salam sejahtera

peace upon you

( oh, it's question mark again! )

do you have any experience expecting something that you wouldn't expect?

macam...anak kucing korang beranak

doktor jangka jantan

awak agak betina

tapi yang keluar, khunsa~hah!

kemungkinan itu ada, tapi memang tak tersangka akan berlaku

right?

so, what's wrong with that?

for me

memang gila-gila banyak la benda macam ni berlaku

even sometimes i felt like

argghh! why is it happened???

i don't want this, i hate this thing.. but still, it's beyond us

ALLAH dah tentukan segalanya

siapa kita untuk melawan takdir

enough with the opening

this's a norm right?

but

what if

because of this

unexpectedly

i laid my attention to one of this guy

not in the mean of love-couple thing, but in the mean of friendship

sadly, it happened

interest grew bigger and i became fonder

not to him but to his preference

macam mana ni?! 

haish!

beeskuwt is going crazy

over 'black' thing like this

unexpectedly juga

im falling again

not falling in love, but falling in a feeling that i don't even know

i love this kind of feeling

i am free!

free from anybody, free from anything

but still, i need to restrict myself

konon dah free mula nak buat mengarut

hopefully nope!

unexpectedly,

i felt my old self again

setelah sekian lama

tapi hanya sementara

i let myself get involved again and burdened others

sorry to those that had listened to my stupid problems

even though i knew they had a lot more on them

but still, selfishly i wanted them to hear me

huh!

saya menjadi terlampau bergantung pada orang untuk menghilangkan ketidakpuasan hati

padahal i got Him to help me

title kali ni macam tiada kaitan dengan jalan cerita

maaf

however

pada sesiapa yang tahu macam mana nak tolong mereka yang senget preference nya ni

please comment and share

i really need it!

i am really thankful if you can share with me

p/s : GOD, i'm crazy over small little things!

although i have a lot more important things to think.

why ME???

salam sejahtera

peace upon you 

warning to people who think they are not ready to face 

such a gruesome truth

wrong way to those who don't want to know who they really are

i always think that people are cruel

*only when they gave me something that  don't want*

i always think that people are crazy

*when i know that they do know i can't do something that they gave me*

i always think that people are stupid

*when i know that they knew i already reached my limit*

but

when i read this 

Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. 

But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.

( al-baqarah,216 )

the problem is

when do we remember this verse?

did it ever struck your mind when He gave you something that you don't want?

no..right?

tapi bila ada kawan yang mengadu

"beratnya ujian ini"

"susahnya hidup aku"

"sakitnya aku"

pandai pula saya dan awak semua berkata-kata

"ALAH tak turunkan ujian yang tak mampu dilakukan hamba-Nya"

bila diri sendiri terkena

tak ada nya nak ingat ayat ni!

do you dare to ask yourself again

when someone ask you to do something

before you accept what will you say?

ok?

yes?

my pleasure?

no!

you will say

"tak ada orang lain ke?"

"saya banyak kerja la"

"kalau dah takde orang lain..."

right?

...funny...

hampir semua yang baca ni

*hampir*

do said this

before this

i really hate it

when people said 

"you can do it"

"i believe in you"

"you are the best"

but i know the truth

those words are made just to sooth my mind, my heart

deep inside, i knew

i can't and i will never can't

*before this*

sometimes it felt like they said it just because

they DON'T want to do it by themselves

last time

i was forced by my classmate to enter an impromptu public speaking competition

i was representing my class

at first i was frustrated

why me???

not others?

asyik-asyik saya!

*saya sangat-sangat tak suka dengan keadaan itu, masing-masing menuding jari ke arah orang lain walaupun mereka belum memasuki mana-mana aktiviti representing the class!*

i tried to think positive

i want to increase my confidence, my self-esteem

i must dare to speak in front

onstage

and i did it!

even i only got the 5th place, from 12 if i'm not mistaken

ok la right?

for some one that seldom talk in front

and i was very thankful to them

and felt sorry too

they missed such a great opportunity

next time i must enter these kind of competition again :)

that's one of the examples

okeh, time for serious matter now

move on to other topic

what do you feel when people keep pointing their fingers to you?

and get mad when we pointed ours to them?

i felt annoyed

i felt angry

i wanted to get mad

and scold those who keep pointing their fingers to other people

*sorry to my classmates, kadang-kadang saya terluah apa yang ada dalam hati*

please and please

jangan harapkan orang lain

kalau diri sendiri rasa tak dapat buat jangan nak tunjuk-tunjuk pada orang laen

and if you think you can do it

"senang je pun...tu pun nak marah"

do volunteer yourself

frankly speaking

i do believe in myself

i often said i can

just do it

if they can, why can't me?

but

there's some matters

which i can't simply said these things

please imagine this

you have been selected to be someone, a leader in guiding people 

for example

people chose you to guide them in biology class

but you failed that subject!

of course you can't do it right?

actually

you can!

but you need time to improve yourself first

then help others

what will happen if you simply accept it and proceed?

there's two possibilities

both parties, you and them

can get better

or

can get worse

i don't want it to be like that

i don't want to be somebody that can ruin people's life

when they can get better

but because of me 

( yang masih bengkang-bengkok )

in front of them

they may be someone that they do not suppose to be

it's not good

at all!

sometimes

we think we are not qualified enough

for the thing that we being asked to do

and we know, we don't have the 'X' thing

we got confused

arrgghhh! why me???

i don't want and why it must be me??

and get stressed for the whole day, or week or month!

why don't you be optimistic?

if you think you don't have the qualification

then, improve yourself!

tapi saya dan anda tak nak itu

bukan itu yang kita nak

apa yang kita nak

lari dari tangungjawab!

how can i say NO

when i knew people expect me to say YES

kadang-kadang masalah tu jugak applied kepada mereka yang memberi dan memilih

sukar kah untuk memahami kenapa sesetengah orang menolak?

mungkin bukan kerana masalah yang ada dalam fikiran anda

don't push too hard

people may get tired and fed-up

bukan hanya saya tapi yang lain juga

penat untuk mengelak sebenarnya

untuk menerangkan apa yang ada dalam hati bukan senang

mungkin suatu hari nanti

bila saya berkeyakinan yang saya mampu

i just need time to say that

p/s : maaf kepada mereka saya yang berasa saya mampu, saya masih belum yakin ditambah dengan masalah komitmen...( to sesetengah orang )