a short note to a FRIEND

salam sejahtera 

peace upon you

a friend is one who believes in you

when you have ceased to believe in yourself

i really don't know why

maybe because i seldom bother about you

it's not like i don't want to care

i really cared about you, about everyone in my circle

it's just that...maybe it's just my fault

i'm sorry

sometimes

i got my own reasons

i tend to keep it to myself

i think

it's OK, i can handle this

it's OK, i can't make others worry about me

it's OK, because they don't want to know either

actually

it's really not!

i really want you to know

oh, i have problems

instead of 

i'm OK dear

it's OK, i don't mind

it's OK if i'm not around 

instead of

keep that fake smiling mouth

i really want to share everything that i can

i want you to know that i'm hurting

i don't like your words

i feel offended when you say that

i feel annoyed with your jokes

but

it's difficult right?

i still feel a gap with you

even to tell something that i should

i think that

i have to keep something to myself only

you don't have to know

they don't have to know

i just keep that thing shut from all of you

actually

when everything accumulated together

it's hurt

very much!

i felt like i was an alien in front of you

what i did together with you

all are fake

the faces i used to show you

only a mask

maybe i'm not fit to become a so called true friend

i don't even reach the standard of a friend

yet i proudly claimed myself as your friend

how funny i was!

i promise you

again

i PROMISE you

i will never make things difficult for us

i love you so much

don't ever leave me

don't ever leave us

together we continue our journey in this world

i can't stand alone without friends

so do you

“Sesiapa antara kamu yang menginginkan kebahagiaan syurga, hendaklah dia melazimkan diri dalam jemaah. Sebab syaitan suka kepada orang yang bersendirian.” (Hadis sahih riwayat Imam al-Tirmizi)

p/s : ilysm! 

jom TAMBAHkan FOLLOWER

salam sejahtera peace upon you

http://softwarefordummies.blogspot.com/2011/08/sticky-post-jom-tambahkan-follower.htmltak tahu kenapa saya tak dapat add link to that pic or any wordsso i just paste the link straight here.
a segment from mr ARIL :)this is my very first time, joining a segmentall this while i thought it will be burdensomelinking,tagging,all sorts of thingsbut this segment kinda easy to join and seems FUN to meteringin nak traffic yang gempak tapi pemalasmaybe after this my view will change?haha
pape pun..TQ very muchand nice to meet everybody!
p/s : happy weekend! :)

how IGNORANT they are. Oh, not only them..but also YOU and ME

salam sejahterapeace upon you
i have problems!only now i realised that i am actually, totally don't know how to arrange my priorities!*sigh
then how?of course i cant blame others if our priority is not the samein other wordsi want to do something that they don't wantmaybe i think it is importantfor them, it's might not as important as it is for mesometimes this kind of thing just....annoying!
i felt that they are ignorantthey don't even want to put their shoes in my placeit's not like i just simply made my decision without thinking about them..or it might be about you

i do think hard you know!
so...from todayi will arrange my priorities according to everybody's mindsetwhat i mean isnot only what is important to me but also to others comes firsti don't want to be ignorant like what others did to meif it can annoy meof course others will feel the same tooright?

p/s : i really not in the mood : SS presentation is going on while i'm typing this entry =.="bbbooooooooooooosssaaann~

between the one WE LOVE and the one that LOVES US

salam sejahtera

peace upon you

have you ever met this kind of problem?

struggling in choosing something or someone that both are important?

the difference

that one is someone / something that we love the other one is someone / something that loves us

*this is not spot the difference quiz ya!*

ini sama sekali bukan cinta tiga segi ye

analogi simple :

si A falling in love with si B yang tak suka kan diapada masa yang sama si C suka kan si A si A berkawan rapat dengan kedua-dua orang ni

tanpa kita sedar kita menjaga hati salah seorang 

dan 

pada masa yang sama melukakan hati seseorang yang lain

terus berada dalam kekeliruan

or 

menunggu sampai ending nya jadi camni?

menunggu sampai yang tak suka jadi suka?

tapi mak nora elena ada cakap

"kahwinlah dengan orang yang sayang kita, bukan yang kita sayang lebih-lebih"

so?

tepuk dada tanya diri sendiri

kesimpulan atas dasar kesedaran saya,

jangan fikir bab-bab cinta, hati dan perasaan nih

headache je

sampai jodoh kahwin juga :)

p/s : keputusan idea untuk meng-update =.="

"HANGAT-HANGAT" puasa

salam sejahtera 

peace upon you

alhamdulillah

saya dan anda-anda semua masih bernafas hingga ke hari ini

dalam bulan barakah, bulan rahmah

pernah dengar hangat-hangat tahi ayam?

definisi daripada beeskuwtmarie : bersungguh hanya pada permulaan sesuatu perkara sahaja

( nak lebih tepat sila cari dalam mana-mana kamus peribahasa ye )

jadi apa maksud "hangat-hangat puasa"?

bersungguh hanya pada permualaan puasa sahaja

tapi bab berbuka puasa maybe tak berubah, still the same from the beginning .^^.

dari 1 Ramadhan sampailah 30 Ramadhan

beginilah agak-agaknya kan meja makan di rumah kita 

kenapa hangat-hangat puasa jadi pilihan saya?

kenapa tidak 'panas' sepanjang bulan?

ketika orang sibuk membuat entri keseronokan,kelebihan dan keindahan berpuasa

saya memilih untuk memperlekeh perkataan puasa dalam kalangan 'orang kita'

salah satu contoh paling dekat dalam konteks saya sebagai student

majlis iftar jam'ie di surau

pada awal Ramadhan, awal minggu ni

masyaAllah, penuh!

sampai tak cukup talam

orang berasak-asak cari tempat nak makan 

( ok, exaggerated a bit )

tapi semalam, 5 Ramadhan...nasi pun dah mula tak habis

pakai dedah-dedah at least dah berkurang

rasanya yang ni kat mana-mana pun sama

asal Ramadhan je, tutup..off from view

sebelum Ramadhan..segala apa yang ada boleh ditayang

main-main sentuh?

berkurangkah?

nampak sama je =.="

pi bazar pun berpegang-pegang

pi berbuka sekali dekat mall pun nak pegang-pegang

pi terawih pegang-pegang?

oopps, pi berbuka sekali balik lambat

so tak sempat nak terawih

kita husnulzhon
moga yang berpegang-pegang yang kita lihat itu suami dan isteri
moga yang baru tutup Ramadhan ini akan kekal bertutup dan menjadi lebih baik cara menutup selepas ini
dan seterusnya...mantapkan diri sendiri! 
kritik orang tapi diri sendiri tak jadi apa pun tak guna
menambah dosa pula buat batal puasa pula






p/s : nak balik kampung, nak berbuka kat rumah =.="