empty thought : a need to brainwash yourselves

salam sejahtera

peace upon you

i really hate it when i have nothing in mind 

when people asked me something which you too will feel like a s**t

questions like,

sebenarnya, apa tujuan awak berada di maktab ni?

apa tujuan awak wujud di dunia ni?

semua manusia ada tujuan untuk hidup, so, what's yours?

to those that already have life plan 

which are not disturbed by any distraction

no obstacle at all

even you have, you still can overcome it

you are not included in this heart-broken session with me

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nak jadi anak solehah

nak jadi cikgu cemerlang

nak jadi isteri dan ibu mithali

nak jadi sehebat Siti Fatimah r.a

if that is your answer

lame!

if no effort are taken to make it a reality

 to most people, it's just a promise uttered by your mouths 

not by your heart, not by you yourselves

your answer just to comfort yourselves

just to show that at least you have something you want to achieve

in fact, you never give it really serious thought!

untuk saya

yang life plan yang dulunya dirancang dengan teliti sudah hancur musnah

cebisan-cebisan memori lama masih berguna untuk dicantum kembali

i'm trying hard to paste them on a piece of empty thought

so that when people ask me this question again

i will have a solid answer and i can tell them with proud

apa tujuan saya berada di sini

berdiri megah di muka bumi milik Tuhan

you too

i knew,

when people asked you that kind of questions

first, you have nothing in mind

if you do have something

you cant tell them with confident

why?

because yourselves dont have confident!

whether you can do it or not

dont ask me how i knew, cause i just know

even you yourselves dont trust 'you' to make it true

 it is hard to accept but remember, reality's hurt 

the only solution,

think, with healthy mind,

what is the reason behind your existence

cukupkah sekadar hidup bahagia, senangkan hidup ibu bapa?

cukupkah sekadar mencapai cita-cita yang selama ini diimpikan?

mana khidmat anda kepada masyarakat?

mana jasa anda pada agama?

mana bakti anda pada negara?

do i need to consider all that nonsense???

yes, you do!

if years before,

when my teacher asked me,

what is your ambition,

I would copy the answer from my friend 

which i think she's/he's the most brilliant person in the class

funny right?

now?

empty

i need to think and revise back my whole years

born on this Earth

p/s : study week during raining season = studo~

STRESS vs REDHA

salam sejahtera 

peace upon you 

i once heard an ulama from Indo

Sheikh Rohimuddin an-Nawawi al-Bentani

"saya berasa stress, lantas saya bermuahasabah...mencari di mana saya tidak redha"

i felt a static flowed in my body

oh, stress means i don't feel pleased with what God had gave me

get it?

try to think

your teachers / lecturers gave you abundant of assignments to do

the due date?

tomorrow!

what you can do?

yes you will try to finish it

at the same time, you keep babbling, blaming the teachers

why...why...why

that's why you become stress

you think too much but you do less

after this try to handle you stress

     REDHA    

put your best efforts in everything

the satisfaction sure will come 

and you will your keep smiling face all the way round afterwards

Sheikh also said that :

kalau anda sangat mudah berasa marah, sedih, gembira bermakna dunia ini sangat memberi kesan pada anda

jangan lupa

destinasi kita adalah AKHIRAT sana :)

p/s : i need to seek for help in managing my stress =.="

flashbacks : TELENOVELA hidup

salam sejahtera

peace upon you

last saturday

i went to KLCC and met my best friend there

shazni marzuki

you are just too wonderful to be described

wonderFRIEND

we shared everything that we could think at that time

ahh..betapa dah berubahnya hidup kami

i miss my old friends

real bad!

today i met my ex-lecturer from KMPP
she's a very significant character in my life

the one and only

miss wahidah abd majid

she said

im different and she did mentioned that

"dulu dia selekeh je"

in front of two of my present classmates =.="

actually i was proud when she said that

she saw something different in me from before

im changing..of course to the better

from selekeh..mungkin kepada lebih kemas..kot!

everything that i had faced, my experiences, bittersweet moments 

was flashed during that short time with her

there are memories that was hard to forget

and experiences that was hard to get!

i kept all the memories that we'd shared together in my mind closely

it's even hard to write even an ounce of them

it's too fantastic to be written with words! 

p/s : im looking forward for a reunion bebeh!