salam kasih dan sayang
peace upon you
i felt miserable
seriously i hate this kind of feeling
but then
who am i to feel like this
the feeling that you felt
when nobody talk to you
nobody ask you
nobody bother about you
when you are ill
when you are even hardly can open your eyes
your face turned pale like a corpse
you can hardly walk straight
then
your friends dont even talk to you
perhaps
they glimpsed once or twice
but no words
oh how weak i am
i wish im not the minority
i wish im not the only one different from them
i makes me felt terribly sick
sick from hatred and anger and jealousy perhaps
sadly...
its not the very first time
:')
aku tahu aku bukan siapa-siapa
hilang aku tidak membekas
tiada aku tak bererti apa-apa
ada aku seolah halimunan
wujud aku kadang tidak dihirau
aku tak mampu nak minta empati
simpati dan kasihan mungkin cukup bagi manusia macam aku
tak tahu bersyukur
ties that binding us now
may get stronger
may get weaker
we make the choice
aku bukan kakak yang baik
juga sahabat yang mengerti
seorang yang jahil
seorang yang 'garang'
seorang yang 'emo'
entah
pada mereka-mereka yang rapat
begitu sekali tanggapannya
kenapa sampai satu ketika mereka yang lain pula yang menghargai
sometimes
i felt like
i dont have what we call family
the family that i always used to thought i had
is just my imagination
friendship is never about who have known you the longest
its about who came and never left you alone
when you needed someone the most
aku
masih belum mampu menafikan hak diri
kata aki
mungkin inilah proses yang Allah bagi pada aku
untuk bentuk NAFI dalam diri
alhamdulillah :')
p/s : sometimes you give up on someone not because you dont care anymore,
but you realize, they dont.
